forgive me, for being so restless, so crazy wrought with jealousy for those of you that can enjoy those small things in life. i am feeling a large void right now - missing the things listed above, even if i could just have ONE of them. its crazy how when you live somewhere sooooo remote, after you've lived somewhere "bigger", you realize how even the little, teeny-weeny things that you used to think were everyday routines in a different place, would be so relished right at this moment in time.
i think about my sister in portland, how she gets to go to stumptown whenever she wants + the photobooth @ ace hotel if she decided. i think of my father and mother who get to walk out their door down a block and have a great latte and walk another couple blocks, and go to the best co-op ever. i think of my brother and sister in law in china and all of the eye candy that they are inundated with daily (i am sure). i think of one of my besties, amanda, and how she gets to have tulips in mason jars all year long (we don't have such a luxury here in rapid). i think of amy who gets to see cute little cafes, pop up in her neat little brooklyn neighborhood. i dream of getting all of my loves together in a field and eating on one large long table in the middle of nowhere, much like this. trust me, we WILL do this, buddies. like in the next year - you down? um, how AMAZING will this be?? so amazing. definitely something to look forward to. for sure.
oh just the little things. the little things of life i miss. i don't know if i should keep reading these blogs, feeling a void here at the moment.
not that SD doesn't have its "perks"- but when the perk are the golden prairies and the cornflower blue skies with marshmallow clouds, and ITS WINTER AND 50MPH WINDS - you can't really enjoy the perk. yeah, the perk. hahaha. i mean, its pretty crazy, when you are DYING to go to minneapolis/st. paul because it feels like Paris to you. yes, that's where i'm at folks, if minneapolis is Paris, what is rapid city??!??! heh . heh.
i have some ideas about starting a collective project with some of you, dear friends. i am thinking and thinking about how we can all feel more connected...any ideas? help me. i am getting sucked in to a void of nothingness!!!!!!!
okay maybe not nothingness, just restlessness. connect me to you and your life. please? thanks. oh yeah, and will someone please take me here?!?!?!??!?!? like, now?!??!?!
"THE KEY TO HAPPINESS IS TO CHOOSE HAPPINESS."
- me riding a unicorn on a chinese prairie sipping a slurpee and eating bonbons while chinese men look on in awe and fear.
to give others context to why this pillowig is so amazing, is that mike used to wear our pillows on his head when he'd be goofing off and he looked just like this chick/ dude above (??). one of my favorite stories circa 2003-ish, was one night i was trying to sleep in my room in olympia @ about 3 am. i was roommates with elise, na'im and casey at the time.
there was all this commotion outside my window by the driveway where we parked our cars. then a big bang. and a bunch of laughing and "hee hee"ings.
and elise, mike and na'im decided it was a funny idea to dress up as fat as they could and go to the 24 hour supermarket to buy donuts. (i admit, a great idea). so they put on as many clothes as they could, layers upon layers to appear extremely obese. it turns out that mike had a pillow on his head just like above, except it wasn't actually made into a proper "hat" like the pillowig. elise was driving and had so many layers on that she couldn't physically turn her body around to see where she was driving her car and crashed right into my ex-boyfriend's car. a big dent and a bunch of giggling and 3 people covered in layers, so fat that they couldn't even move.
even though they crashed into jesse's car, they still went to get donuts.
true story, thanks asian chick/dude for reminding me of how amazing pillows on heads can be.
| GRIFFITH PARK, LA, CA |
"The earth is in motion and growth; the mountains, hills and prairies are green and pleasant; the bounty is overflowing; the mercy universal; the rain is descending from the cloud of mercy; the brilliant Sun is shining; the full moon is ornamenting the horizon of ether; the great ocean-tide is flooding every little stream; the gifts are successive; the favors consecutive; and the refreshing breeze is blowing, wafting the fragrant perfume of the blossoms. Boundless treasure is in the hand of the King of Kings! Lift the hem of thy garment in order to receive it. If we are not happy and joyous at this season, for what other season shall we wait and for what other time shall we look?”
This quote is amazing. It helps me open my eyes to the life that is all around me, once I am able to do this, I am attuned to the energy and powerful vibrations that are all around me - especially when I am in nature. that is the best place to feel God and let go. It also helps me check myself to be more positive and strive to see the beauty in all things...sometimes that's hard when you are in negative digit temps in cold and frigid sodak...but you get the point.
This has been one of my favorite quotes for the last couple of months, it makes me feel proud of my honesty, rather than ashamed or overly sensitive to how others might take it:
"Never apologize for showing feeling.
When you do so, you apologize for truth."
Baktash and I just got back from LA where we were for 10 days, and I have been conscious of the fact that I have been MIA from the ol' bliggityblog. I have been feeling unmotivated and unexcited lately, maybe cos its winter, maybe because a lot has happened to me in the last 6 months and I am just now winding down...i am not sure. But I promise to blog more, as long as you promise to keep checking in and telling me what your thoughts are too, my two dear readers. ;) heh.
What are some of your favorite quotes to start off the new year??