creepy music videos from some top notch musicians.

modestmouse used to be my all time favorite band. i found this on pitchfork. pretty creepy/trippy/strange/pointless (?):
PB&J always keep it real & this video cracks me up::

i've always been keen on the idea of someone's head exploding when they get really angry or something, i am sure that is inspired by all the cartoons (when they were still GOOD) na'im and i watched growing up. but this track by GRIZZLY BEAR is just messed up. but intriguing. made by patrick daughters, who i really admire as a filmmaker. he has made the majority of FEIST's music vids. check the creepiness factor:
what do you think? creepy or cool??


danger mouse + sparklehorse + david lynch = a dream come true

very interesting/intriguing/exciting/blowmybrainsout stoked project/collaboration with already mentioned gentlemen plus other fave artists. read the article and listen to the album, "Dark Night of the Soul" in its entirety HERE.

so so so pumped. so pumped. now i can actually start on my thesis. ha.

home is where the chilkats are.

matched by:
- a good ole cup of joe in a thermos
- a hand rolled cig in the misty cool air
- my rubber boots
- my polaroid cam
- and finally, laughing & crying with my best friend while laying on the damp beach.

i love this. it is the perfect thing ever.


"we are all inventors, each sailing out on a voyage of discovery, guided each by a private chart, of which there is no duplicate. The world is all gates, all opportunities."

- ralph waldo emerson

"...where mention of God hath been made and His praise glorified." --Baha'u'llah


the polaroid adventures of the onesie in juneau, alaska.

"i'd rather see you once a year than someone else seven days a week."

for Lindsey, Kylie, Leif & Tony.

Kisses and Hugs: Lay.


soul food.

"do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps of the not-quite, the not-yet, and the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists.. it is real.. it is possible.. it’s yours."

Ayn Rand

its important to go home to where one belongs and feed your soul once in a while. i cant stress enough the importance and the good it does one to return to where they belong, if even for a short while. we get so wrapped up in life, constantly moving, constantly working, not taking much time to stop sometimes and hear what our hearts have to tell us. we constantly starve and deny our hearts wishes, our raw truth. going home is like feeding your soul, making you feel like you belong somewhere. a sense of belonging is actually really important. and an experience we all need to remember to honor. what do you think?


five years. (a to the k)

i went home to alaska for the first time in five, yes dear reader, FIVE YEARS. pretty nutty when you actually think about it. how one can  be away from home for so long. no wonder i was so freaky these last couple of years...it was so awesome being back i was baffled by the enormity and awe of the nature that engulfed my spirit and soul. one of the last untouched places on earth. it made me feel so little and protected to be nestled in the huge mountains and protected waters...it was really strange being back, like i was coming home after so many years, so much has changed for me, and i associated juneau with old things, old ghosts, old memories. but this time going back was extremely cathartic and replenishing. i kept it really sneaky , as i was only there for three days, and was very selective what i did with my time. i was spoiled by dear old friends (esp. lindsey, thanks!) and had fresh seafood everyday. one day, lindsey and i went my favorite place on earth (boy scout camp) while brian (lindsey's man) was crabbing/fishing. then we met him at another beach and roasted the thing and ate it straight on the beach, it being caught just one hour prior. things like that are what make Alaskan living something extra ordinary. one has to questions their quality of life once going / coming home to AK, as the quality there is like no where else i've ever been. i was reminded again in a very profound way why it has always been so important for me to access nature easily. 

i also had a photoshoot with my dearest bestest flickr / juneau girlfriend, kylie. we've been dreaming of photoshootin' together for years. and we finally got to do it, and even best- in our hometown. more of the twinsie-onesie photos to come in a later post. 

i do hope you enjoy these photos and at least you can get a glimpse into the workings of my heart while looking at them. all love. 

signing out: sam-ex.


for Patrick

Patrick Hill taught me the most important thing in life- to allow yourself to be vulnerable, for if we don't allow this, we never grow, gain a true connection with others or feel at peace. i try to live my life by leading with my vulnerabilities every minute. that doesn't mean it's not damn hard. but i think we should all remember the importance of giving power to our vulnerabilities, for where else to do we achieve strength and growth?

"being vulnerable doesn’t have to be threatening. Just have the courage to be sincere, open and honest. This opens the door to deeper communication all around. It creates self-empowerment and the kind of connections with others we all want in life. Speaking from the heart frees us from the secrets that burden us. These secrets are what make us sick or fearful. Speaking truth helps you get clarity on your real heart directives."

Sarah Paddison


my husband to be.

this will be us in the future (thanks to col sonner for this clip...he thinks this looks like me. this looks like me as much as that guitarist looks like bak...) :

soon, so swoon.
65 days.